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beldoc @ 2007-04-26T23:25:00

2007-04-26T22:26:21Z

I thought this was pretty cool, and the perfect way to procrastinate...

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beldoc @ 2007-04-19T00:22:00

2007-04-18T23:25:01Z

I just wanted a chance to use my new user pic, its the first icon I've ever attempted.... um I think I might need help in the future!

beldoc @ 2007-04-17T00:26:00

2007-04-16T23:32:51Z

Look at my new icon... how cool is CC?

Thank you cleopatrapalace

(why isn't there a squee emoticon?)

Deep breath... and exhale

2007-04-12T22:09:08Z

Alrighty so long time no blog...

I've been a busy bee, I have started a new job in elderly care, I love the old dears and its soooo much better than cardiology, less stressful, though still as busy.

What they just don't tell you in the job applications is that you will get in early and still be in work at 7 when your day should've ended at 5 and then your boss will look in just before you leave, roll their eyes an utter the famous, "Why are you still here?"

And its not uttered in that wow you're really dedicated kinda way, its more in the why are you so bad at time management and haven't finished everything yet kinda way. And try explaining to them that its not your fault they agreed to take on care of 4 extra patients at 4 o'clock and none of these people had been seen today or yesterday or in fact had any tests done since they were admitted and you couldn't just leave them there. And to top it all off one of my lovely men has prostate cancer and i have to look forward to the joy of telling him in the morning. yay. and while thats not unusual and it is part of my job and i do it every day (or so) its still not a fun task and well in fact it kinda sucks, especially since i went to talk to him this afternoon and he has no idea that this is a possibility... i tried using 'warning shots' like "What do you think this means?" and "Has anyone spoken to you about the possible causes of this problem?" and nothin.

on another, thankfully lighter note, what about jared padalecki not coming to the convention? dunno how i feel about it cos well, don't have much of a particular feeling one way or another for the man himself but would've liked to have witnessed the boys banter.

also just checked out little ribbons lj and she had this meme, which i found myself participating in and cos i'm a rule follower put it here cos of stipulation number 8:

Comment on this post, and I'll:
1 - Tell you why I friended you.
2 - Associate you with a song/film.
3 - Tell a random fact about you.
4 - Tell a first memory about you.
5 - Associate you with a character/pairing.
6 - Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7 - Tell you my favorite user pic of yours [if it pertains].
8 - In retort, you must post this in your LJ. :)

also i just watched the old episode of ER where Mark dies, I cannot believe this but found myself crying like a baby, like actually sobbing, what the hell is wrong with me? I'm not even a big fan of the show, and it happened YEARS ago?

I think i'm one of those people that lets things build up and then eventually some time down the road something will spark off the crying and it all comes tumbling out I mean all my friends will tell you they have never seen me cry and thats perfectly true but only cos they are not in my flat of an evening when the episode of Ally McBeal comes on where Billy dies and cos I've never watched Mr Hollands Opus with them... for obvious reasons.

I mean really I remember being the only dry eyed individual at the death of my grandmother and then sobbed when Matthew had a heart attack in a field in Anne of Green Gables.... essentially I'm wondering... is this weird?

Well not weird per se but am I irretrievably screwed up? I don't think I have a neuroses or anything just curious if i may be emotionally stunted in some way?

Oh and again back to the lighter note... I'm going to a hen party this weekend. I have the best weekend planned, on friday i'm going to a drug dinner (this is where drug companies take us to dinner to get us to prescribe their drug) one of the girls I work with is giving a presentation on hypertension and I've threatened her that I'm going to ask obscure unanswerable questions - I won't cos she'd kill me, but its still funny. And then on saturday I'm going to a tapas and salsa dancing night for one of the nurses I used to work with, she's getting married next month, now the interesting thing about this is that I think I've talked to her... twice? no idea how i got invited or what the hell happened but i'm going anyway cos salsa rocks.

okay so going from complete neglect of my lj to this...

i think it may just confirm my slightly odd personality, ah well

doc

edited to say: if anyone can tell me how to do that link thingy so i don't take up everybody's entire page on their friends page i would be much obliged!!!

tests and the like... why I hate computers

2007-03-22T22:41:10Z

okay so i went through all the blogthings tests that you guys did and I pasted all the results in here last night. And then, turned around and nuthin, damn laptop froze and all the fun witticisms I had typed in were completely lost. What joyous fun, so now I'm doing them one at a time:

What Beldoc Means

B is for Bewitching

E is for Edgy

L is for Likeable

D is for Dignified

O is for Optimistic

C is for Cynical

What Does Your Name Mean?

But to summarise the rest, they suggested stupid music (my 1996 hit was 1979 by Smashing Pumpkins), weird men (my celeb dude was Steve Tyler) told me that I was an angel (all damn lies) and that I would have passed high school with an A+ and I should consider pursuing an advanced degree in medicine... lucky that.

hello world...

2007-03-19T22:44:11Z

I have been off work for 11 days!!!

It was absolutely fantastic, I didn't take a holiday, I didn't go anywhere I just finished decorating the house, hung pictures, sorted out a new bed and painted my 'accent wall', had my first guests in the newly furnished guest bedroom, complete with their own guest towels.

And now I have to go back to work, and I have a thirteen hour on call shift awaiting me in the morning. Joy.

For some reason I always get nervous before going back to work, especially if I've been off for a while, like I'm gonna forget what it is I do everyday at work or something. Then I'll go and ya know it'll all be fine after like 20 minutes but all day the day before I return I have butterflies, its really weird.

Anyway...

So I've been wondering, since it mght encourage me to be more involved in the world of the livejournal... how does one invite friends? you guys invited me and i just said hell yeah but i would love to see what some of the other nuns are up to, especially coming up to the con it would be good to know whats happening.

so what do i do?

So...

2007-03-06T22:28:01Z

There is a good reason that I have not been anywhere to be found lately. Haven't been on the forum or lj or really anywhere outside of work.

Has everyone heard about the fiasco with UK doctors appointments? Well I'm caught up in it and unfortunately this means that even though I have great references and work status reports because I didn't use the buzz words that someone wanted, amongst the thousands of applications, I didn't get shortlisted for interview. I mean how many different ways is there really to answer the question "In 150 words or less demonstrate when you've been a leader?"

Now the kicker is that since this has made the headlines its come out that if the hortlisters didn't get their lists done whicever applicants ahd not been assessed were just discounted. Also it means that hospital will be a little under pressure while the juniors all go for interviews... well all but me.

So basically... I'm pissed... and jobless from August 07

But on the bright side I can join the 1000 other doctors who are protesting on the streets of London on St Patrick's Day....

JOY.

Doctor-y stuff

2007-02-23T22:46:04Z

So lets see, all the doctor stuff is pretty boring I work in a City Hospital as a Cardiology Doc at the moment so basically I make sure that people who have heart attacks get the right drugs and also that people who are a trisk of a heart attack don't have one. I spend a lot of my time in the ER and let me tell you its nothing like the show.

The most realistic medical drama' on TV is probably Scrubs, can't tell you how many times I've used the banana hammock line, but I guess Grey's Anatomy runs a close second.

I've gotten to the stage where I have lots of responsibility, but there are still people above me (thank God) that I can check with. And I've gotten past the stage where I do ALL the work and don't get any sleep when I'm on call.

It is pretty cool though on the days when you come home and can test your friends.... "I saved someone's life today" and realise if you weren't there that person may not have made it.

But mostly... paperwork.

So in other news... I own my penthouse apartment and my cousin in moving in for a few months next week so I have to go 'create' a spare room. This is at the moment a laundry room come study rrom come landfill and needs serious help before Monday.

I'm also waiting to find out if I have interviews for a new job, I'm trying to move up and into a different specialty but haven't had any feedback from my application yet... again Monday.

Okay definitely enough about me for the moment....

hello all

2007-02-14T00:48:31Z

okay so I've finally succumbed to the live journal, here it is, I am perfectly at my leisure if anyone would care to say hello!